Point of No Return

DON JUAN (PHANTOM)
You have come here in pursuit of your deepest urge, in pursuit of that wish, which till now has been silent, silent. I have brought you, that our passions may fuse and merge -in your mind you've already succumbed to me, dropped all defenses, completely succumbed to me -now you are here with me: no second thoughts, you've decided, decided. . .
Past the point of no return -no backward glances: the games we've played till now are at an end. Past all thought of "if" or "when" -no use resisting: abandon thought, and let the dream descend. What raging fire shall flood the soul? What rich desire unlocks its door? What sweet seduction lies before us? Past the point of no return, the final threshold -what warm, unspoken secrets will we learn? Beyond the point of no return. . .

AMINTA (CHRISTINE)
You have brought me to that moment where words run dry, to that moment where speech disappears into silence, silence. I have come here, hardly knowing the reason why. In my mind, I've already imagined our bodies entwining defenseless and silent -and now I am here with you: no second thoughts, I've decided, decided. . .
Past the point of no return -no going back now: our passion-play has now, at last, begun. Past all thought of right or wrong -one final question: how long should we two wait, before we're one? When will the blood begin to race the sleeping bud burst into bloom? When will the flames, at last, consume us?

BOTH
Past the point of no return the final threshold -the bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn. We've passed the point of no return. . .

(The Phantom of the Opera)

Frustration

I'm beginning to think something's wrong with me. I just tried to be with someone... but then he had to go, I didn't feel satisfied and now I'm all alone again, sitting in front of my computer.
I hate to think that lately the most pleasant experiences I've had, have been alone or via Web... this is terrible. I don't know if I will ever see you, and I can't go on like this. I have to get real.
There are some guys here but I don´t like most of them. And then, when I finally decide to be with someone, it just doesn't work. That's why I rather play alone, but in the end, I still need a body to hug and some lips to kiss.
And then again, right now there's no one here I want to be with. Yes, there are this guys I can just have sex with, but sometimes I would like someone I could also talk to. Hard, ah?
I want no commitment. I need sex. But I also want someone I can have some fun with, who is not boring, and satisfy me. I don't want a boyfriend but I don't want just sex... moreover if it doesn't satify me.
I know things could be easier if I wasn't like me: if I could really separate my emotions and my needs...

In my head...

I've thought so much of you today that it hurts me...

Virtual insanity

Maybe the most stupid thing I've done lately is to push away a guy I know, who is real, just to keep my loyalty to the guy in my mind, who lives miles away from here and is only on the Internet... sometimes.
I just can't help it. I know I gotta put an end to this and move on, but since there is finally a date in which we will meet again, it's harder now to get him off my mind.
I am also aware of the big possibility that we will get dissaponted, but this time I'll take the risk.
I miss you every day...

In & Out of love

Well, I gotta recognize that, just that Alicia Keys' song, I keep on falling in and out of love with you. I got it clear now... I will just stop pushing things and let them happen. Time will say, then. And I just can't fight this feeling... it's better to let it flow.